March 6 – Returning – Mark Nepo, The Book of Awakening
We carry a centre that is always returning.
We all stray from the moment in particular ways. If we meet someone and begin a new relationship, it isn’t long before we’re walking hand in hand, while wondering if we will sleep together; and if and when we do, we are wondering if we will live together; and if and when we do, we are wondering if we will have children – and on and on.
This happens with fear and pain as well. In diagnosis, I feared surgery. In surgery, I feared treatment. In treatment, I feared stronger treatment. In recovery, I feared recurrence.
No one can avoid this straying, but our health depends on the breath that stops us from straying further. No matter how far we’ve gone, it is the practice of returning to whatever moment we are living now that restores us, because only when fully in each moment can we draw strength from the Oneness of things.