June 13 – Against Our Will – Mark Nepo, The Book of Awakening
As an inlet cannot close itself to the sea that shapes it, the heart can only wear itself open.
One of the hardest blessings to accept about the heart is that in the image of life itself, it will not stop emerging through experience. No matter how we try to preserve or relive what has happened, the heart will not stop being shaped.
This is a magnificent key to health: that, despite our resistance to accept that what we’ve lost is behind us, despite our need at times to stitch our wounds closed by reliving them, and despite our heroic efforts to preserve whatever is precious, despite all our attempts to stop the flow of life, the heart knows better. It knows that the only way to truly remember or stay whole is to take the best and worst into its tissue.
Despite all our intentions not to be hurt again, the heart keeps us going by moving us ever forward into health. Though we walk around thinking we can direct it, our hear is endlessly shaped like the land, often agains our will.